obs and exposing too much about myself 😍😍

warning: it's just my messy mind spilling everything im thinking of rn and a lot of random thoughts ive been having lately.

 lol ive been blogging alot about obs lately but its not my fault that like i legit caannot wait to do like kayaking and stuff its going to be so fun ahhhhhhhhhh. anyways tdy was so chaotic in the morn when everyone got their grps but my teachers didnt send us and i was like screaming jsjhskjdfkdsfjdskjfkjds but idk anyone in my grp rn. i think ik one person?? ive interacted w them like a few times?? ohwell its still gonna be fun 👍👍 i lowkey want to be in group 32 cuz got like 5 ppl ik in there (3 hera and 2 other) so it wld be more fun yk but nvm lol. oh i js realised that obs is in like 5.5 days and i still have not finished buying stuff help 🫠🫠 (crying that emoji looks so funny on my phone when im not using whatsapp)

okay lol i forgot about this. i js socialised alot at a party today and now my social battery went like 📉📉 faster than usual. idk lah ive been a lot less social nowadays even like online i dont text people as much and stuff. maybe its js cuz im lazy in the hols. but y2 i became SUPER social then up till april/may i was very social but towards mid may i realised that i was un-socialising (does that make sense??) ya.. idk honestly. like aft ¾ of y2 i wanted to make like a lot of friends and have like a lot of memories w all of them. but now its more of i just want a few core memories with those friends im very close too. like for np, there's sm memories of like parades together and clowning around and stuff and its been consistent for the last 2.5 ish years. but y1-y2 friends was for those 2 years where it was super fun and stuff then we started drifting a bit. like we still talk but lesser yk. but for hera,, like i still see yall minimally twice a week for parades and like my closest friends from class are also hera. help im suddenly feeling emo about hera. yeah im just starting to accept stuff instead of saying like "oh maybe can change" and stuff.  

okay i think ive talked too much im probably going to regret posting this but its okay

also i think my stomach is really wonky lately. like for a minute i will have absolutely NO appetite for ANYTHING at all like not even my fav foods then the next minute i'll be starving and i'll be able to eat twice the amount i normally do. and then sometimes i'll skip one meal and no difference to energy level but sometimes i'll eat 3 proper fulling meals and snacks and i'll still be hungry???? idk i think im exposing too much rn

oh help this post is super long but its fine. i'll create a new post for all the other things i wanted to say tmr (if i rmb lol) gn for now :)