life.

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 i hate everything. i have zero motivation. i cant be burnt out so early in the year i still have a longlong way to go bro. i tried doing multiple things to make me feel a bit better (meeting one of my super close childhood friend's baby sister bc she normally makes me super happy bc she's so cute, and making post os bucket list so i have motivation, watching comfort videos) but nothing worked at all i've been super down the whole day and i js keep forcing myself to study bc i really don't have a choice. i have bio on tues and i'm not even close to done revising. i haven't even memorised yet how to do qns. i'm saying this all here bc i don't have the energy to rant to anyone or talk to ppl in general. even xxxx didn't get me excited today. idk man life's been super bad lately i really need longer than a weekend bc my weekend isn't even a weekend considering sat i'm only free after 630pm (essentially longer than a normal sch day tbh) and idk i'm usually super happy when i text friends but i barely had the energy to reply to ppl today. life's been terrible and i try to tell myself it will get better but i know that its just going to get harder from this and then i start downward spiraling and overthinking and stuff 

but its ok i have to get through this i need to work hard so i can go live the life iw and do everyth iw in the future :)

thank you for reading if you did <3

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