sick and tired

 i can't say much but the only good thing ab today was SLI (like the actual marching part). everything else was absolutely trash. i am so so sick and tired of people. i do not wait to deal with anyone anymore i js want to take a really long nap. i genuinely thought today would be a better day but ok i guess 😐 i just have to hope and pray i get through this alive. but i am genuinely so so done w everything and everyone. not everyone is who i thought they were ☺ sometimes i remember to get other people's opinions and suddenly my feelings make more sense LOL

anyway i did not get TS tickets. i am so sad. this added on to my entire bottle of terrible emotions. it's ok i just sent voice messages to my one and only real one 🤘 (that emoji is called 'sign of the horns' i just learnt that) fr feels good to let my emotions out lol

also speaking of SLI. thank you for the video. it was genuinely so good and wonderful. i was tearing up okay. y'all have no idea how many times i rewatch alr! all the msgs so cute 💓 also help during SLI everyone screaming sm i was trying so hard not to smile 😭😭 i loved it though so cute! i had sm fun during SLI. all the rehearsals and js playing games while waiting. prepping Uniform omg i forgot all the Badge arrangement LOL i had to go find pictures and refer! but damn fun though 

i'm super physically and mentally tired right now i really want to just go sleep! maybe i will lol no point in studying if i can't focus anyway i think i'll sleep at 10.15 ish idk! wow i am yawning a lot

also. sometimes i think ab like if 10 years in the future or something i come back to this blog will i remember which posts are mine..... like that's crazy if i can't identify my own posts. that's wild. 

omg also today i went to life science room for bio bc our class split and our teacher said let's go there! and it's so cool bye i was so fascinated by the equipment it's sm more interesting than normal labs lol but me and my friends were js acting like kids bye our teacher said "ok at the end i'll teach y'all ab 2 of the equipment here" LOLL it was cool though!

ok i js went through a whole rollercoaster of emotions typing this blog out like every para is new emotion

ok bye! hope everyone's day has been better than mine!