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 i am not the strong woman i thought i was.... i am struggling everyday and i have no hope left 💔 i am so scared i don't want to do anything anymore i just want to get over all of this. we don't even corridor anymore bc we r all studying and mugging and even in school during breaks everyone is constantly studying. i will forever be jealous of some people. i am happy for them but sometimes i just wish that i was like them. i'm sure they have their own problems but i just dw be myself sometimes. i just want to be a better student and person. (this got emo very fast but its ok need to get out my feelings) idk manz life has been getting harder and idk what to do about it bc i cant stop the grind bc it will be detrimental to no one but myself. and i really want to achieve my goals but i'm so sick and tired of doing the same thing and living the same life everyday 😓 i think about what would it would have been like if i worked hard since y3... i now regret my actions sm... y...

 hello! alot to update my cnu fans about 😘 1. PRELIMS OVER LETS GO! but results is like next next week which is a week bfr os.... how do we buck up in ONE week 😊😊😊 its so frustrating sia,, like i think mid this yr they said "the runway btwn prelims and os is not that long so it'll be quite challenging" AND WHOSE FAULT IS THAT. live laugh love 2. grad is in 2 days..... im not ready to leave cedar bye 😭😭😭😭 ive grown too attached and comfortable w everyth and everyo idw to adjust to a new env. and everyone will be in diff schs so we wont see each other and i'll have to resocialise and ill miss sec sch sm 😭😭😭 im not at all ready to graduate and im terrified bc no way is it our turn alr.... 😓😓😓 i emo-ed for like 20mins b4 tuition tdy 3. less than 2 months to prom heheheheheh im so excited fr i havent bought my dress yet but im so so excited 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 i fr cant wait omfg  4. IM SO EXCITED FOR NORMAL SCH ALSO!!!! bc weve only done exams for the past 3-4 weeks ...

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 hi hello HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJU BABESSSS i love you sm! you fuel my delulu and support it 100% i love that thanks for keeping me happy,, im so so grateful for ur presence,, hopefully i go vj and we can still be tgt for 2 more years YEEHAW anyway i am coughing my life away no cap. i evolved from flu to fever to cough now for abt 3 days i am just coughing whenever i open my mouth. its so painful on the throat. i hope this cough flies away asap and i can go back to my healthy fit n lit self (JK ITS NOT HAPPENING TILL END OF Os) speaking of end of Os, its in like 56 days OHH MYYYY LORDDD prelims are over but then prelims results are only gg to be here like 2 weeks later?? hELLO how am i gonna work on my weak subjects like that! whatever i will grind my backside away and ace DA EXAMS. i have been watchign emo tiktoks since like 12pm and crying to it. idk im js emo. also i ate 2 apples today cus i was oddly craving them so bad esp after grinding my english tys! i only did like half a paper...

 hello! I’m back, haven’t blogged in a while so i shall! T4 js started and i am so drained gosh. Quick summary of this wk (it isn’t even over yet 😭😭) Mon: Punggol library 🤤🤤🤤 i love Punggol lib sm. Since everyone thr is mugging one way or another, it rlly motivates me to do the same. I got kicked out of my seat like twice so me and Kella gave up and settled some whr else with a decent view! Lunch was jajangmyeon and it was not bad! Though it was weird how the noodles ver was like 8.60 and the rice ver was 3.80.. but anyways, had a nice meal and talking session with Kella. We shared a table w this other family that had this kid who was arnd 2, she was waving to me but I didn’t see so her grandma said “hello aunty” to me 😭😭😭 im not even that old! Anyways finished the grind and wanted to eat McFlurry but all the ice creams at one Punggol macs was sold out so we walked our way by to wwp but their McFlurry formula was weird… did not taste like usual at all. Dropped by popular be...

 hi im gonna blog a bit bc i have a 5h break btwn phy p1 and msp p2 and i need to take a break from studying 😅 life update. life has been horrible i am stuck in a time loop. come sch, give exam, (sometimes cry about it), discuss answers, go home, shower, eat&slack, nap, study study study, eat, sleep. im so mentally exhausted from doing the same thing everyday 😓😓 anyway im gonna tell u guys ab my 5h break! our msp prelim is ip eoy so we have to wait for them to get dismissed and bfr that we only have had phy p1 which is 1h. so paper ended at 9, msp paper is at 2, so we have from 910 to 140 to do wtv we want but we dw go home bc dw waste travel time ykwim. so me and my friend have been sitting in our classroom w aircon on (bc whos gonna come and check 😊😊) and js studying... i knocked out for like 30min bc i desperately needed a nap! but so far ive done one bio p1, revised some msp vocab and now im doing msp paper. its currently 1143 i still have to spend 2h but i didnt bring...

 hi hello I have been grinding so much hist and amath and they are both my terrible subjects that make me wanna kaboom. ALSO SINCE IM SO WEAK IN THESE  I TAKE LONGER to revise these and its so infuriating sometimes like im fr losing patience with myself its so annoying where did my psle smartness evaporate away :( 12 year old me ddint have to grind this much and still score well but now i need to mega grind tot be able to js score DECENTLY. thats so unfair but its ok i will push thru!  anyway today i went back to sch for phy extra lesson1 well it was optional but then i needed to not rot in my dek for one day. so decided to get my backside up and go sch today. im so stupid again the lesson started at 8.30 but i thought it was 8 then i reach sch like 7.50 then i was wondering why no one then i see msg that CLEARLY STATES ITS AT 8.30. FACEPALM. well ridha sharmin babes joined me shortly at 8 then we js talk talk and verbally revise chem HAHA chem ftw i love chem sm. then le...

 hello im taking a break so im gonna blog bc i can! ok first good job Persephone for ATC 😋😋😋 sounds very fun iw be there but its ok i am living vicariously through yall. idw blog too much ab this bc i have alr expressed my thoughts to diff ppl alr so! but super super proud of you guys very happy that yall got to experience this 🔥 second i was missing NP big time today bc NP alw brought me comfort and stuff bc it was kinda a way to forget ab everyth else and escape and today was so so so overwhelming everything in my life was going wrong and i js wanted to forget ab everyth and do a WUR or proposal or smth 😭😭 sorry i sound insane third sept hols has been a absolute 0/10. i have without fail cried and broken down every day since monday.. 😕😕 life has been crazy lately man im so tired 😓😓 i am living the same day everyday i js sit at my table and mug fourth i have been doing sm ip math thanks boomwhacker and kalai. its making amath a breeze LMFAO but i genuinely think my chem ...

 BYE BEEN SO busy with prelims i never blog in like a month i think. ANYWAY i was doing hist now and i randomly js remembered i could blog! PRELIMS WAS TERRIBLE (Actl no) i think easiest was mt followed by ss and emath rest were all ok or hard. hist paper 1 was a breeze but paper 2 will kill me. geog was js weirdd? idk i felt nothing. CHEM P2 WAS SUSPICOISLY EASY LIEK HOW EVEN?? CEDAR CHEM EASY? MAYBE IM JS SMART HEHEH JKJK PRAC WAS SO HARD NO ONE FOUND IT EASY BUT PAPER 2 was ok lah i think most shud be able to b3 atleast. anyway still got 1 week of prelims then sch abit then prelims results then Os HAHA! not ready man guess what? Os are coming to an end in like 64 DAYS????? that slightly more than 9 weeks. OH GOD THAT SOUND EXTREMELY SHORT BYE IM SO DOOMED.  amath is such a pain in the backside (blog friendly words are so funnny) atleast im not one of those abnormal losers than can do amath but not emath?? excuse me thats like saying u cannot walk but u can sprint??? anyway ...

hello everybody im going to blog properly bc i havent in a while all my posts were js me going insane so im gonna give u guys life updates 😘😘😘😘 1. more than halfway through prelims 💪💪💪💪💪 first half was absolutely horrifying i never want to do that again i am beyond grateful that we have close to 0 days with 2 pprs for os 2. graduation is in 16 days 😊😊😊😊😊😊 thats absolutely terrifying and prelims end in 13 days. os end in 69 days 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 torture will be over! 3. sept hols have started but that js means more mugging 😅😅😅😅 at least i can catch up on many lost hours of sleep 🤞🤞🤞 4. i am looking to post os sm i have a google doc with everyth iw to do bc its the only thing keeping me going. (btw i think its crazu that the past 4 yrs are all leading up to os and os start in wait lemme check. 32 DAYS WHAT. thats like js one more month bye  5.  https://youtu.be/iySzX_aXZYk?si=zy1pDXQH3UpAA2OJ  this is absolute gold btw omfg my life is quite boring actual...